{"id":71,"date":"2023-05-18T01:30:00","date_gmt":"2023-05-17T23:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/?p=71"},"modified":"2023-07-10T19:13:19","modified_gmt":"2023-07-10T17:13:19","slug":"18-05-2023","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/2023\/05\/18\/18-05-2023\/","title":{"rendered":"18.05.2023"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Oeh. Ma olen nii v\u00e4sinud. T\u00e4nane just algas ja ma p\u00fc\u00fcan n\u00fc\u00fcd magama minna. Kell on umbes pool kaks hommikul. L\u00f5petasin just t\u00e4naseks joonestamise. Eile \u00f6\u00f6sel magasin umbes 3 tundi, \u00f6\u00f6l enne seda 1,5 tundi. Ma loodan, et t\u00e4na \u00f5nnestub ka v\u00e4hemalt 3 k\u00e4tte saada. Keha ja m\u00f5istus hakkavad tasapisi v\u00e4hemt\u00e4htsaid osasid v\u00e4lja l\u00fclitama, et t\u00f6\u00f6s p\u00fcsida, aga und ei ole. Ma ei tea mis toimub. Mu energiav\u00e4li on viimastel p\u00e4evadel suhteliselt stabiilses rahus. Minus on enesekindlus ja teotahe. Mulle meeldib inimestega suhelda ja ma ei pelga v\u00f5\u00f5raid. Kuidagi veider on olla. Sinu puudumine, viha, m\u00f5nitused ja torked kraabivad vaid veidi nahka, aga ei haava. T\u00f5si &#8211; t\u00e4na suutsid Sa mu korraks t\u00e4iesti uut moodi tasakaalust v\u00e4lja ajada. Ma tundsin, et ma ei taha Sind sellisel kujul oma ellu. See armastus ei kadunud kuhugi &#8211; ta j\u00e4i ikka l\u00f5putu ookeani sillerdusena mu sisse m\u00fchama, aga see ego oli nii v\u00e4sitav. Maailm ei p\u00f6\u00f6rle ainult Sulle. See p\u00f6\u00f6rleb Sulle ka, aga mitte keegi ega miski ei loe Su m\u00f5tteid v\u00f5i eksisteeri selleks, et Sul hea ja lihtne oleks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Energiad, loodus, maa, inimesed, loomad, k\u00f5iksus &#8211; nad toimivad \u00fchte moodi &#8211; k\u00fcsi ja kui on v\u00f5imalik, siis antakse. Kui j\u00e4tad k\u00fcsimata, saad andja parema \u00e4ran\u00e4gemise j\u00e4rgi. Keegi ega miski ei taha Sulle halba &#8211; mina ka mitte. Samas on maailm tuhtu hingele peegliks. Peeglist paistab vastu see mida peeglile n\u00e4itad. Kui saada v\u00e4lja trotsi, kadedust ja pettumist, siis just seda ka maailmalt saad. Sama kehtib naeratuse, helluse ja t\u00e4nutunde kohta. Mul on kahju, et l\u00e4ksid magama, j\u00e4ttes \u00f5hku &#8220;Ma vihkan sind&#8221;. Ma arvan, et keegi ei ole vihkamist v\u00e4\u00e4rt ja see kurnab ennast rohkem kui vihatavat. Selle mis enam ei teeni v\u00f5ib maha j\u00e4tta ka vihkamata. Mu liblikas.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Oeh. Ma olen nii v\u00e4sinud. T\u00e4nane just algas ja ma p\u00fc\u00fcan n\u00fc\u00fcd magama minna. Kell on umbes pool kaks hommikul. L\u00f5petasin just t\u00e4naseks joonestamise. Eile \u00f6\u00f6sel magasin umbes 3 tundi, \u00f6\u00f6l enne seda 1,5 tundi. Ma loodan, et t\u00e4na \u00f5nnestub ka v\u00e4hemalt 3 k\u00e4tte saada. Keha ja m\u00f5istus hakkavad tasapisi v\u00e4hemt\u00e4htsaid osasid v\u00e4lja l\u00fclitama, et [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-71","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-2023-mai"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/71","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=71"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/71\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":72,"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/71\/revisions\/72"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=71"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=71"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/siim.puidet.ee\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=71"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}